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I will never fully belong here
But I'm beginning to realize that, that's okay...
For the place I search for
Will soon show it's face someday...

It doesn't hurt anymore
No longer does my body react in tears
For I know now
That the place I search for
Will soon be drawing near...

This place I am  in
Was never really for me
But I had to pass through
So that I may understand reality
So that I may see life more abundantly
And all that could possibly be in store for me...

Sometimes they treat me bad
They celebrate without me
They ask everyone to outings but me
They even say hello and goodbye to everyone...except me...

Sometimes I wonder
Is it because of the color of my skin
That causes them to justify their lack of generosity...

Whatever it is
I mustn't allow anguish
To consume and take over me

I still must allow love
To reside deeper
Than any animosity...

You see, I can't take it personal
This is all essential for the journey of "me"
And after all
This place that I'm in
Was never really designed for me

It was only to push me closer
Closer to the place
I desire to be...
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